Where Do I Belong?

Last night a Twitter post put me in the mood for this song. "Home" from the musical version of "Beauty and the Beast" has got to be one of my favorites of all time. (And isn't the girl who sings it amazing? I spent an hour with my girls wandering through her videos...WELL worth the look).

For a survivor Home sometimes becomes an uncertainty. A question. Which is why this song speaks so strongly to me. Not every home is a Norman Rockwell painting. Does that make one stop trying to find that place though? Either in the arms of one you love in real life? Or in a song in a musical that carries your mind to somewhere outside yourself for even a short time.

This week I read a lecture for a class I was taking and it came to a part that involved self-hypnosis. The idea behind it is to close your eyes and put yourself in your happy place...your true home...and to visualize yourself doing something that would make you not only happy, but PROUD, with the idea this helps you to change your attitude. Well, I'm game for new things. The problem comes when I close my eyes and try to find 'home.'

Where is home? My mind wanders over beaches and forests, valleys and mountains...looking for that place where I am at peace. Yet I settle no one place for long. I think...that maybe I'm going about this wrong. My life has been without peace for too long...and I'm going to the wrong place to find it.

Peace isn't in a picture from a travel brochure. It only comes from my heavenly Father. So, closing my eyes I seek HIM first. And finally find home.

"But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well." Matthew 6:33

Where is YOUR home?